Should i just give up for these next few years?

for the sake of is fine. There should be no guilt. (Be safe) The relationship you are looking for will elude you as long as you look for it. Define your self, do what you are good at and enjoy, be social and outgoing, be confident. Focus on your self and others will take notice. What you need will present itself in time. You have to be open to it, but not seek it desperately. Self confidence and self-direction is intoxicating stuff to women. Focus on that, they will start to swarm like bees.